It hurls back to you like a boomerang. Always reminding you the worthlessness, hopelessness, restlessness, and sadness. Sometimes you believe everything it says to the point you become frozen in one place. Always feeling depressed. It tends to take all your energy so you feel restless. There are days you want to give up. You know you have been fighting for a good life more than most people. You know you have to fight for your happiness twice as hard than most people. You know you have to survive this illness before it consumes you.
There are always those moments when you think it controls you. You think it is an enemy that plays with your mind. It is only a enemy if you want it to be. The enemy line that you hope you won’t cross again but, in the end, you do cross it. Always feel trapped in one spot. Just frozen and scared.